On Death

Endless as the ocean

And wide as the sea,

I am filled with emotion

Thinking that can’t be…

Loved people come our way,

Then suddenly they pave a new road far away,

As they depart with no warning –

Leaving so early on a silent morning!

We tend to believe that we rule

As we decide, plan, organize, and aim

Oh how ironic, and how fool!

As in a second, there is nothing left to claim!

Death is a path – we all have to take,

It is so real, so daunting, and not fake!

It is the one that takes as far

Leaving it’s door wide ajar!

It strikes at once,

Warning you with every pounce!

It shows pride in its power,

Stressing it every minute of the hour.

It brings heavy silence with it

Pain, anger, agony of no limit!

It does not differ among the human race

Black, white, poor, or rich – as it knows no face!

But once we are back on trek

We humans tend to forget,

We fail to appreciate life at its full

Taking it for granted – all in a handful!

But then death falls on us with a thud

Wrapping its weight in a flood.

To remind us that it will always come our way

With no invitation, or a warning, or even a say!

And when they are gone

Only memories help us to move along,

Leaving us with shattered thoughts

But with a faith ever so strong!

It is life with all its irony,

Its beauty, its harshness

Its bitterness its sweetness –

Beating in our hearts tirelessly!

Acceptance is the key

Acknowledgment makes us knee

To what matters the most –

The Truth, and to that I toast!

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My Thankful List

With Thanksgiving coming just around the corner and the deep meanings it carries along, I decided to tell you more about my way of being thankful.

I can fill pages about the things I am blessed with as a mom living in the 21st century. Women of this era are bestowed with great opportunities which we could make good use of. Not only that, we really do exhibit a beautiful kind of freedom which makes us enjoy and appreciate life. We have reached a point where we have the right to vote, work, and participate in any domain we might be interested in.

Finally, we are all blessed with endless resources like nature, the sea, the moon, the stars, art, music, and modern cures. However, I will be stating only six of my boundless thankful list.

1. Faith:

I am thankful for the faith and trust I have in God. I know that whatever I plan for and whatever I aim at will be guided through His support. Faith gives me a sanctuary to accept challenges and over come them. Faith helps me accept peacefully what fate has designed for me. I do pray that I will always hold onto it as I progress in life, and be able to transfer this belief to my children.

2. Good health:

I am thankful I have all my five vital senses vivid and functional. Being able to read, write, enjoy food, and feel the beauty of life is a bliss by itself. It is true that we take these things for granted. Hence, exerting them without acknowledging this fact, and to only remember them when we lose them or when we are in pain, is shameful. However, that same pain that we sometimes experience, is also a blessing as it reminds us to appreciate the perfection of the human body.

3. My family:

I am thankful for the amazing gift of having my loving family which God bestowed me with. I am so lucky to have them in my life. In addition to having a warm house where we feel safe and sheltered, our home is loving and supportive. We are free to share our pains and fears, happiness and joy, sadness and disappointments – all the while knowing that we are there for each other. I would not have explored love or known the ecstasy of affection without each and every member of my family.

It is true that, like everybody else, we have our ups and downs, but it is through that kind of discomfort, we learn to stick together and solve our problems the best way we can.

4. Education:

I am thankful to have had the chance of earning a good education which has helped in quenching my endless thirst to knowledge. Moreover, through the right direction and guidance I have received, I was able to choose a profession that I truly enjoy.

Doing something that you rejoice in makes a person appreciate her work more. Hence, she becomes more productive.

5. Vacations and holidays:

I am thankful for the ability that we can travel, explore, and learn through our trips and journeys. Those moments are precious as we are able to enjoy our moments together, our children, our laughter – our bond!

Those ‘breaks’ help us get out of our speedy routine, and make us realize the importance of appreciating the given moment.

6. Technology:

I am thankful for the great inventions that were achieved across the years, with the most recent being the smart phones. Despite their negative aspects, my phone is the means through which I get in touch with my dear ones, and connect with people who can support me in my journey.

The relief I experience when I know that I can reach whomever I want by pressing a simple button, is gratitude by itself.

After all, whatever feelings I have can be easily shared with a close person, making the burden and discomfort evaporate.

By being grateful, people attract more positive vibes into their world. They create a cheerful and satisfied heart. They form a live soul filled with energy and ardor. Finally and most importantly, they reflect that exuberance towards others.

And you dear reader, what are you grateful for?

What Each of My Children Taught Me

The transformation that happens to a woman when she becomes a mom is something beyond words. The emotions she experiences are way beyond description, and the struggles she faces know no limits.
However, the things that a mom is not aware of are the endless lessons which she attains from her very own children.

So what has each of my five taught me?

My eldest D:
As I look back to that young mom in me, almost 13 years ago, I would smile and observe how much I have changed. I was six months pregnant with my first baby, and I was more than excited to that moment where I would finally wrap him in my arms, drinking in his scent.
I was still living in France back then, and life was not at its best. I was working as a full time teacher, I barely saw my husband due to the hectic work routine, I was homesick, and I felt bitter.
What killed me the most was the fact that I knew I had to keep my baby boy at a nursery at the age of 3 months and go back to work. I was simply not ready for that kind of separation and it tortured me to even think about him being taken care of by a complete stranger.
One night, I put my hand on my round tight belly and prayed with all the strength and faith I had, asking the Almighty to take us somewhere – just anywhere – away from the country. A month later, with happy tears streaming down my cheeks, I was packing to live in Abu Dhabi for a year – or that is what we thought would happen!
From that day on my first son has been my mentor in strengthening my faith and in believing that “To pray is to let go and let God take over.” And so He did!

Whenever I feel uncertain or worried about my big boy now, I know he has his own protectors and I humbly accept the difficult challenges I had when he was smaller.
Being a first time mom, back then, I thought that motherhood came with a manual where everything is perfectly set in place.

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First time mommy has taught me about strengths I never imagined I have. It taught me to endure physical and emotional pain. It empowered me in ways I did not imagine I would, and it made me more realistic than I have ever been.
With him, motherhood was a mysterious deep ocean filled with anxious wild rides through which I experimented all those new emotions with uncertainty. At the same time, I learned to capture unique successful moments through the tangled twists and turns which resulted in the mother I am now.

My 2nd Son R:
The arrival of our second son was a blissful moment. I was delighted to have two little buddies who were there for each other, play with one another, and take care of each other. As I knew that I would not stop at two kids, I welcomed being a mom of two boys with pride.

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Unlike the first time, I had a very smooth delivery filled with confidence and assurance. I even gave him his first bath, a few hours after delivery, knowing exactly what I was doing – not even looking at the nurse standing next to me.
Since the day he was born, I learned that a mom’s love is infinite and grows bigger and bigger with every additional child. That miraculous moment when a child breathes for the very first time and cries out, is just filled with a magical kind of love and gets repeated with every new child born.

My second son came to life with a thirst to learning and acquisition which taught me all about rationalism when it comes to parenting.
I learned that I could not force them to do what I want them to do. For children to learn to do things out naturally, they need to be convinced of its goodness and how well it serves them. It has to become a habit, a mode of living, and it is very difficult to attain. That is why, patience is the key. After all, it takes years of tears and trials for us to reap what we sowed.

I gradually learned to worry less as the frozen fears which I had, as a first time mom, slowly started to melt leaving greater space for me to enjoy them more. It was then that I quickly realized that children grow way too fast, and I wanted to make the best out of motherhood, in the finest way possible. I was more than happy to realize that I was no longer that apprehensive mommy.

My Third Son S:
I experienced the real joy of motherhood with the presence of my third boy. His addition brought me an extra mile of satisfaction. I was more confident, patient, mature, and I somehow knew more about the impulsive traps of parenting.
Being alone with him at home, while the other two went to school, he soon became my companion and my buddy. I spent such precious moments with him, and when the other two came back home, that joy was automatically transferred to them.
My Third, clarified the idea of being easy going and of not judging myself too much. He taught me of being happy for the mere fact of having them with me. His buoyant character and self confidence made me appreciate the presence of my three little boys beyond words. I was so grateful for that contentment which I truly feel to this very moment.

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Moreover, I learned to take any failure as a learning opportunity, just like them. I also became more focused on expressing my love towards them, and I deliberately attained the art of apologizing when I make mistakes or behave in a negative way.

The Twins:

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The birth of the twins was a simple reflection of life’s endless miracles, the faultlessness of human formation, and the perfection of how God deciphers His astuteness through us.
I confess I did not really get the chance to fully rejoice motherhood with them, as I wanted to be completely present with each one of them. Of course many are the times when that was not possible. It is then that I accepted the fact that aiming at being the ideal mom would leave me frustrated and hopeless. Slowly, I redirected myself into focusing on the present moment and dealt with what needed to be done first.
The first few months were tough on every one at home. We felt we were all moving in different directions, but the support system I had back then, reduced those worries and made me more focused.

So prioritising my duties according to what suits them best was the key for me to overcome that period.
Finally, the twins’ presence, despite the differences in character, made me aware of the precious bond these two beings have. The love and affection they feel towards one another is unimaginable. Their bond is so pure and true, and the delight they pour into our hearts is heavenly.

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It is really true that “While we try to teach our children all about life, our children teach us what life is all about.”

With my five I learned all about the ironic feelings of motherhood ranging from hopelessness to success, from acceptance to change, and from certainty to ambiguity. I learned all about perseverance, resilience, fear, guilt, and pride. I also learned about that unconditional love that drives us crazy many times a day. That is why, I will never cease to learn from them, and try my best to exert my patience in the best way possible in order for us to enjoy this period of time together.

What has your child taught you?

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My Faith

Out in the river I could see

Golden light shimmering with glea,

I held my breath and gazed

With this beauty I was amazed.

Nature is so perfect, so pure

It is my harmony, my silence, my cure

And if you listen carefully,

That silence is so godly.

The flawless light led me through

Preparing me to what is True!

Suddenly, it carried me in midair,

Making me aware

And opening my eyes,

Just to make me observe and realise,

That things change, and people leave

What remains is what you believe;

Faith, my ultimate weapon,

Is my guard, my armor, where I could summon;

Hope,

That secures me like a rope.

Strength and Power,

To face misfortunes of the hour.

Comfort and Peace,

Where my trust continues to increase.

Yet holding evenly to Faith is dense and hard on my soul,

As if I’m carrying hot burning charcoal.

As I am human after all,

And many are the times when I do fall.

Yes, I am far from perfect or supreme

I do have my sins, my guilt and misdeeds!

I sometimes feel weak and broken in two,

I get shattered not knowing what to do.

Sometimes I am hopeless and forlorn.

Poisonous anger pricking inside me like thorn…

Other times I feel empty and bare

Leaving me shiver with despair.

Oh that ego and its own bitter self

It just takes me away from the real Wealth…

But then I remember that perfect Light,

So I pull myself up tight.

Dwelling in that Faith of mine

Making it again my shrine.

It is then that I regain my serenity

And feel the One and His joyful unity!

I do pray that I honestly and deliberately…

deserve that ultimate Tranquility.

Rania Hussant

Oct. 2017

Fun Facts About Us

After the twins were born and we settled into our new routine as a family of seven members, we experienced some amusing changes in our daily lives. I have included a few of them below.

1. Nail cutting:

It is funny that it didn’t take us much to realize that we had to cut and file 100 nails every few days. It happens that most of our children’s nails grow fast and tending to all of them takes time. Trust me, it is not something I enjoy doing, let alone the other many hygienic issues we need to consider and take care of!!

2. Car Driving:

We have bought a Honda Oddessy to fit us all in comfortably and easily. To be honest, I love this spacious mini-van of mine as it is practical with sliding doors on the sides and not too high for me to climb and fasten the little ones in their car seats. Still, we need around ten to fifteen minutes to have all five buckled up and seated properly before hitting the road. I still don’t understand what takes them that long to sit and fasten their seatbelts.

And once that is done, you would dream to have a calm ride around. They are either all talking at the same time, or fighting over which song they want to hear. Even the twins now make it a point in choosing their favorite hits! Enjoy the ride!

3. Shopping:

I rely a lot now on jotting down what new items each child needs. I have the tendecy to organize their closets once per month which helps me in classifying all the items needed. And with all this organization, I sometimes get confused and buy things I do not really need. The good thing is that if one of them can’t use it, there is always someone else who does. Having different sizes at home has its advantages! 😉

4. Extra Consumption:

As soon as the twins started eating solid food and I had to prepare their meals from scratch, the amount of vegetables and fruits increased drastically. In fact, we buy huge quantities which get comsumed by the end of the week. I know that with time and as the boys turn into young men, food consumption would increase even more. However, I would not mind preparing healthy choices for them no matter how tiring it will be.

On another note, the boys have been showering on their own for some time now, but they consume water and soap in huge quantities. We are still working on explaining how important it is to use them moderately. However, I think it might take more time for them to really grasp the concept.

5. Laundry:

Loads of laundry stack up every day making our washing machine twist and turn at least twice a day. We owe this luxury to William Blackstone who had invented the first washing machine that was designed for convenient use in the home. Otherwise, our lives would have been awefully drastic.

What are some of your funny realistic facts that you have experienced as a mom?

Fall; the Rejuvenating Season

Whenever October beautifully and slowly folds in, I reminisce over the allure season and its warm colors.

To me, Fall reflects a reality of change and modification. One day, like those Autumn leaves, we will set off and leave to a journey elsewhere. To that, I celebrate this Truth through the poem below;

Brown, orange and red

Each leaf drops down dead.

Yet, there is beauty in that

Highlighting the fact

That at one point any entity comes to an end –

Yes, that is the main message I send!

Dried leaves crush under my feet

Making music down the street.

Mellowed richness gather by the side

Saying good bye to my stride.

They don’t quit, they just leave

To another life, they believe!

Crispy cool air brushes at my cheeks,

Then, from a tree a squirrel peaks,

Longing for this season to arrive

As it hops, looks around, and hive.

The first smells of the fireplace,

In my nostrils, leave wood trace.

The crimson and scarlet colors

Scatter all over like feathers.

Keeping me warm as I walk

Making me unable to talk.

Pumpkins, acorns, berries, and corn

Honeyed meadows are born.

Wearing a burgundy scarf and a golden crown

Nature astounds me with its gypsy gown.

With every leaf fluttering to the ground

My heavy burdens are released and drowned.

It’s at this time of the year

I feel I have nothing to fear.

Like the balanced day and night

The good equals the evil on the inside.

Making me assess my soul,

Asking where I’m heading

And what is my goal?

The impermanence of life can be seen

Felt and absorbed with a mind so keen.

Let the darkness inside settle still

Until it frosts to a complete chill.

Give the Light the time to grow

Work on oneself before you go.

It’s true that every phase will soon be gone,

But a soul is constantly on the run.

Floating and twirling in many a form,

Thirsty for that bright Truth to swarm.

Filled with hope I float along,

In this caramelized paradise where I belong.

Feeling happy and in peace,

All my agony has been released!

Autumn, life with you is just a start

A beginning of a new cycle, there is no doubt!

Because when one existence says adieu

A new one blooms in another milieu.

Rania Hussant

October 1, 2017

P.S.: These pictures were taken twelve years ago when I used to live in France.

My 3rd Blogiversary

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Hello guys,

Three years ago, I launched thehelicoptermommy since I wanted to share my experience as a mom of five through a real virtual world that can reach moms across the continents.

Moms who come from different places, diverse backgrounds with various beliefs and several principles. Moms who are employed and moms who are not. Whatever and wherever we come from, we are after all moms, and that is what unites us!

Yes we are simply moms who are doing our best and trying to enjoy motherhood with all the bitter sweet challenges it brings along.

We all have our own daily struggles and hassles. We all deal with such conflicts in the best way we think is correct. We make mistakes and we learn, and then a new battle arises. Yet, on the baseline, we all share the same foundations. In fact, we are all riding the same boat.

Throughout those few years not much has changed, but thanks to wonderful people like you a lot has been acquired:

• I love the fact that through blogging I have met inspiring super mamas who have left a special mark in my heart. From the inspiring moms whom I worked with, to those whom I met virtually, I have learned a lot from them and made some new good friends too.

• I can’t be more happier to be able to exercise my passion and hobby as an aspiring writer, especially because it inspires other moms in maintaining a positive attitude. Moreover, writing those words which come tumbling down on me, helps me maintain my sanity as I juggle through my busy life.

• It is always a great pleasure to know from you my dear followers and readers how much you enjoy my posts and find them beneficial. That is the best reward I can get! At the same time, going over my words again calms me down and helps me overcome certain challenges I face as a parent.

• With the blogging experience I have gained more patience and an awareness of how people and things function. Things do not come the easy way, and one needs to work hard to attain the successes one seeks.

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Today, thehelicoptermommy celebrates its 3rd anniversary, and I am looking forward to the years ahead of me.

For this year, we will continue to empower moms throughout their journeys by holding as many educational and intellectual events related to parenting as possible. Please, let me know of any specific topics you would like me to address, so we can tackle it in the coming year.

Finally, I do hope that you will continue to enjoy my platform as without you, all of this would not have been accomplished .

With love,

Rania – thehelicoptermommy

PS: Thank you Atelier Blanc for hosting me and providing me with your charming venue.

And what other place to be when I got to indulge myself with their rich chocolate in celebration to my three beautiful years of blogging?

Photo credit: @nad_naddoun